Goals

Kai drove into town mind running, fueled by one statement and question, “You guys were goals! What happened?” They really were. She loved that man like her life and salvation were dependent on it. As a devout Christian, and a child of divorce she would never separate her family, and she would never make her children face the pain and instability of a broken home. The home her and Jeremy created in their twenties slowly began to crumble but from the inside. The facade remained in tack but as if termites ate away at the scaffolds of her mental health and the splinter in her eye was perceived by Jeremy as a beam. Somehow the emotional abuse she’d faced behind the closed door of their bedroom crept down the hall morphing into a monster she could not reason with.

It was by God’s grace that she had birthed two children and for Kai, they were the sun and moon. The days and nights spent alone caring for her family were illuminated by the lives of Damascus and Taliah. Yet they also slowly revealed the other side of Jeremy. And when she knew better, Kai resolved to do better. Even if it meant abandoning the god she worshipped all her life.

Sway

He was originally from New Oleanes, and not long after Katrina, Sway found his way to Carter G. Woodson High School her senior year by way of Houston. Sway was a 90s kind of fine, with Nelly’s swagger and a Houston drawl that would knock any girl’s panties straight off. They shared a love for music and Bunny felt akin to an anthropologist when he played 50 Cents Wankster screwed and chopped on a burned CD in her bedrooms boom box.

He tanned a reddish brown like her, but something about him gave Indigenous North American, maybe even Indian. Slim and a tad lanky, Sway always smelled so good and greeted her with his biggest grin. She’d asked him to prom after the guy Bunny had been talking to ghosted her. They would go as friends and would commit to at least taking pictures together. And took pictures they did, despite Bunny’s teammate high jacking the night with a promise and booked hotel room. Splitting her prom date senior year and suffering from instant diarrhea from drinking a daiquiri she’d been handed a the Prom entrance was born in her plan.

Truth in love.

Are you a leader or a follower?

I am a leader who speaks truth in love

I am a woman whose heart’s filled with love

I am a mother who loves her children deeply

I am a teacher who never stops believing

I am a sister who fills in some of the gaps

I am a friend who wipes tears and laughs

I am a forever student who is always learning

I am a professional, morale merits earnings

I am a child who needs love and attention

I am a soul who’s divinely protected

One by one

What are 5 everyday things that bring you happiness?

You must count your blessings,

Count them one by one.

Lest you be forgetting

All the good that’s been done,

It’s like a good father,

Not derelict or strange

A provider and protector

Who plays the long game.

So one is for my daughter,

The apple of my eye.

Two is for my son,

I love to see him shine.

Three is for my doodle

The cutest thing I’ve ever seen.

Four is for my profession

I actually live my dream

Five is for my tribe,

Who walk by my side.

love island

Just realized that I’m not crazy

That everything I want

I totally deserve

Conflict happens when I’m given shit

And I turn around like, “I don’t want this.”

They keep giving me their worst

Knowing I am and give my very best

The swimming pool has piss

Find someone else to wade in this

I can’t wait for this

Or that shit.

I resist

Resistance.

Be like water my friend

On this love island.