Lady

Bunny opened up her favorite app as she walked towards the door to get her order. Margarita’s consommé de pollo and empanadas con bistec were top in her cart. She scrolled upon an interview of Ms. Maya Angelou describing her childhood. From being abandoned as baby, then rescued as a child to being raised by her grandmother. Ms. Angelou speaks of her mother so deeply and radically. She loved her and as an old woman , Ms. Angelou had processed this paradox.

She would, like Ms. Angelo call her Lady. Similar to the space opera, science fiction novel she read about an orphaned child. Last night, for the first time, she spoke aloud to her father, the pain of being abused by Lady mother. Kweku, her stepfather, had been a steady shoulder under the tempest of Lady mother and Fredrick.

Birthed into the monsoon of a Black girl growing up a military brat during the Jim Crow era. So of course she was cruel. Lady mother said it was the only way to make her great, all things considered. Lady thought Nana Mae sold out when marrying that cold hearted man. Poor Papa Jimmy did know that most of the damage was already done before he arrived.

ajima

We lived in what felt like the IE. But in the San Gabriel Valley just south of the 210. There was a Smith’s grocery store and a Guitar Center across the street. She liked Smith’s, it was a wide white grocery store with the tall grocery carts she could ride under. And on the street that led to her apartment complex, there was a pizza shop.

No one really knows how this relationship came to be but a few days spent on the pinball machine of the dining space became a regular. And if she were to really think about it, maybe Ronnie left her there under the watchful eye of Ajima.

Ajima wore a light blue floral house dress white a white apron. It was never dirty but just mussed up to know that she was a disciplined and hard working woman. Sometimes Snuggles would have a slice of pizza, one of Ajima’s son’s ran deliveries, the other worked the counter, and Vince tinkered somewhere in the back. Vince was so elusive, waist length jet black hair draped like a rocker.

But one day Ajima’s boys came by the house, which never happened. Lonnie told her to say he wasn’t there. Door propped open, she saw a look in Sam’s eyes that she’d never seen before.

He must owed them money, like everyone else. Was she a pawn? A way to get by? A singing handsome father, raising a daughter whose mother had abandoned and abused her once again. Yes he was Superman, coming to save the day. This time she found him, after she made so many calls to disconnect numbers and her paternal grandmother. It could have been worse, to believe a man with an “S”, isn’t just a man of many shirts.

Truth in love.

Are you a leader or a follower?

I am a leader who speaks truth in love

I am a woman whose heart’s filled with love

I am a mother who loves her children deeply

I am a teacher who never stops believing

I am a sister who fills in some of the gaps

I am a friend who wipes tears and laughs

I am a forever student who is always learning

I am a professional, morale merits earnings

I am a child who needs love and attention

I am a soul who’s divinely protected