Just realized that I’m not crazy
That everything I want
I totally deserve
Conflict happens when I’m given shit
And I turn around like, “I don’t want this.”
They keep giving me their worst
Knowing I am and give my very best
The swimming pool has piss
Find someone else to wade in this
I can’t wait for this
Or that shit.
I resist
Resistance.
Be like water my friend
On this love island.
I’ve worn my pain like armor,
Now there is no need.
Especially when I see
that my anxiety
is a
Burden.
I’ve expressed myself authentically
While intentionally hiding my pain.
I’ve gone to the depths of me and realized
I’m not so scary.
I will not implode,
Explode
Evaporate
Or discenigrate
I imagined I am stronger than I think.
And my thoughts take flight
Have you laughing with Aladdin
On a magic carpet ride.
So I will protect you
from my shadow
By standing in my power and healing
That “I’m a bad mutha…
“shut yo mouth.”
From the womb of Jim Crow parents
And sharecroppers of Mississippi
Granddaughter to a grandmother who
remembers that her grandmother was “an African”
How could I ever rob you from infinite joy
And rest that is your birthright?
When your home is justice
and patience gives way to the revolutions fight.
I will not be a “Baby Mama”
With all this drama.
I will be a “Bad Motha…
“Shut yo mouth”
There you are again
Pulling on my energy
Tugging on me in my sleep
Creeping in my inner thoughts
Too scared to show who you are
Well, I feel you.
And although I can’t see you
I touch you back
Feel the length of you
In my depths
I grasp hold of you
With gasps, plees and ooo’s
Knowing that you must stay there
even though I feel you pulling.
my read is so fire if you flipped it
you’d think im cursing
matter fact if you don’t script it
you’ll see its cursive
God is my father
watch out you’ll be burning
God is my mother
she’ll take you out of this world and
you acting like it’s astrophysics
im an alchemist,
i mix this pain like a chemist.
god sent you a real one
turned you to a lesson
arms too short to box with God
next time ill move and not feel this harm
now i have to learn and you get this karma
got my script so I dip,
now you heading to phrama – see
now you get what’s coming to you.
warned you before, can’t stop what they do.
excellent service mr. unavailable
emotionally, spiritual and intellectual.
-ly lacking and siphoning
my energy,
with drops of love
so i decided to fill my cup.
and although I’m ever so grateful
this is the year of the faithful.
those who recognize and give their due.
treasure a treasure and not play the fool.
consolation lies in reciprocating,
yet a well run dry leaves one only waiting.
for that which will never come.
can’t call myself dumb.
i believed your every word,
and that which was left unspoken.
you healed the places that were broken,
filled the spaces gone unnoticed.
here there is no blame, only acknowledgement
theres no direction so i can’t follow it.
or you – down this path to nowhere.
it was nice while it lasted
so follow your passions
signed -ms. unavailable.
teachquelle 