Today

Do you spend more time thinking about the future or the past? Why?

Today I decided to release you from my narrative

Chose to write a new one, expose true character

Today I decided to take care of me first

Tired of getting it up out the mud

Decided to accept what I deserve.

The best.

Nothing less.

Than I give my child.

night or morning

Are you more of a night or morning person?

These days it is both.

Making up time past spent

Taking up space in the rooms I’m in.

Planning and setting goals for prosperity

While I clench at my tightened chest

Filled with anxiety.

Late nights orchestrating and motivating my progeny,

Early mornings rising to beat the sun to earn a salary.

That meets my needs, and some wants,

Supplements for every expense,

From edge control, insoles and AP Exam fees,

Palpitations and flutters brings me back to loving on me.

Making sure I am the first one they see.

arrived

What are your top ten favorite movies?

My therapist says I’ve arrived.

Think I’ll take that seriously.

It’s sad when I make tears well up in her eyes,

When I spill all that’s inside;

Right in front on that couch.

Started to twitch and fidget when I talked about her.

Felt those same physical symptoms when I spoke about him.

She says it’s interesting that you both bring out the dark in me.

But it’s just a shadow,

Spent a long time with me.

Remembering that I am light

despite all that’s happened to me.

Played with my inner child,

Filled coloring pages

Read so meany spreads

Shuffled on the floor, in my car, for those who are special who were once a part

Of my healing.

So now that I’m healed,

She says to visualize,

The life that I actually like,

Well, I happen to be living today.

So right now my top ten favorite movies are:

  1. Gladiator
  2. Legends of the Fall
  3. The Color Purple
  4. I’m gonna get you sucka
  5. Waterboy
  6. Lord of the Rings Trilogy
  7. Star Wars Episode 1-3
  8. 101 Dalmatians
  9. The Lion King
  10. Friday