i am there

when you look in the stands

and you don’t see me

know that with you is where I want to be

i’d move mountains, descend valleys

and part the sea

if you could only look up with me in that seat

know, my love, that I want to be there

know that my absence

ain’t because I don’t care

know that being alone is definitely a choice

how could I be your mother without a voice?

know that the simple meal was made with love

know that I’d rather you be passenger side than on a bus

know that you know,

knowing is not enough

couple it with understanding and gain wisdom

wear it around your neck, this undying prism

see that there are consequences

to every decision

be slow to speak and quick to listen

i hope that you’ll see

that I’m always with you

forever you’re a part of me

me over everything

What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?

I’ve chosen myself over most things. I say most because it was by force and circumstance.

Now I’m learning to choose me when there is no adversary and pressure.

To risk choosing me out of love and not lack has been one of the hardest things to do.

I have dedicated most of my life to service. Service to god, family, community, friends, romantic relationships…

I want to-want to, choose me over everything.

i will know

nothing that’s growing ever stays the same

anything growing will always change

whether maturing or decaying

so i will know when they ride this wave

they stay afloat

i know myself, what i am and not

finally love myself, okay with those who cannot

it’s not weakness or the frailty within

it’s common ground, what makes us akin?

similar in struggle, destiny, traumas and fate

it’s only flesh and within the godhead remains

the nucleus of souls intertwined with the divine

this is how i will know

complete

don’t need you

and i want you

craving that emperor energy

a soft life where we can just be

you be you

and let me be me

watch the blessings flow so abundantly

feeding off this infinite energy

cups overflowing into one another

creating a sea of authentic creativity

where we don garments that bring us pleasure

synchronized tones and hue so vibrantly

told every where we go to keep shining

black love so brilliantly blinding

opening heavy eyes to see the essence of humanity

the original Adam and Eve

before the fruit

poisoned with a promise of truth

thinking it was a fair trade

unbeknownst to them a snare was made

against all odds they say it was fate

and here we meet

complete

the girl that got away

It’s funny how you would even consider

Being better does not have to make me bitter

Just irritated that you would think

You’d ever have it better than me

Thought that if you had one

Then you could have two

But I’m a whole lotta woman

And you bit off more than you could chew

Looking over there thinking you could find

A love so pure and true I’d call you mine

Knowing I know you like you know yourself

Without the ancillaries

And the cards you were dealt

Now you see that I see you

It’s funny how you’d considered

Me choosing you