Category: poetry

What are your top ten favorite movies?

My therapist says I’ve arrived.

Think I’ll take that seriously.

It’s sad when I make tears well up in her eyes,

When I spill all that’s inside;

Right in front on that couch.

Started to twitch and fidget when I talked about her.

Felt those same physical symptoms when I spoke about him.

She says it’s interesting that you both bring out the dark in me.

But it’s just a shadow,

Spent a long time with me.

Remembering that I am light

despite all that’s happened to me.

Played with my inner child,

Filled coloring pages

Read so meany spreads

Shuffled on the floor, in my car, for those who are special who were once a part

Of my healing.

So now that I’m healed,

She says to visualize,

The life that I actually like,

Well, I happen to be living today.

So right now my top ten favorite movies are:

1. Gladiator
2. Legends of the Fall
3. The Color Purple
4. I’m gonna get you sucka
5. Waterboy
6. Lord of the Rings Trilogy
7. Star Wars Episode 1-3
8. 101 Dalmatians
9. The Lion King
10. Friday

On what subject(s) are you an authority?

The amount of fear and anxiety I’ve felt being a single mother has deeply impacted my mental health. Enduring cycles of abuse at this level of independence and isolation has put me on a path of hyper vigilance that is barely paved yet often frequented. Yet this path is so fertile, that weeds and grass hurry to fill the cracks. Imaging this experience at a lower socioeconomic level mirrors my childhood. All the limitations and sacrifices made for the sake of a “better life” makes me an authority.