Author: Briquelle

slowly

your love is like honey

so rich and sweet

a slow drizzle

consistency

thick and potent

i yearn for the peace

that settles in while you’re with me

enough space between us to draw me near

enough protection and perception

to assuage my fears

and if i die from rejection

without a witness to my resurrection

then thirty pieces of silver was worth ignoring

that I walked in with open eyes and heart

knowing my fate from the start

and restart of this love affair

how will another compare

a greater you

whose shoes far too unfit

a love just like you

slowly, and unafraid to commit

Click

I’m still not sure if I want to engage

in this play

Of exploitation and capitalism

If I tapped out right now

Finally took a bow

Leaving behind nepotism’s prison

suddenly then came the hit

Like finally something clicked

And I saw all I wanted in you.

The synchronicities are uncanny

You meet me where I’m lacking

Pushing aside my greatest fears

The pursuit and your need to have me near

You ask if this is too much

And I think it’s more than enough

Delaying gratification to satisfy

A false sense of security that denies

The existence of a broken heart

healing slowly

Rejecting those who are lonely

as they do her

With sugar coated lips that lie and deter

From truth

They are her mirror

so she goes within

Hoping it clicks and she detaches

Coming in and out of the matrix

Finally with herself again

Hoping the next time she plugs in

Every loss will feel again like a win.

i am there

when you look in the stands

and you don’t see me

know that with you is where I want to be

i’d move mountains, descend valleys

and part the sea

if you could only look up with me in that seat

know, my love, that I want to be there

know that my absence

ain’t because I don’t care

know that being alone is definitely a choice

how could I be your mother without a voice?

know that the simple meal was made with love

know that I’d rather you be passenger side than on a bus

know that you know,

knowing is not enough

couple it with understanding and gain wisdom

wear it around your neck, this undying prism

see that there are consequences

to every decision

be slow to speak and quick to listen

i hope that you’ll see

that I’m always with you

forever you’re a part of me

me over everything

What’s the biggest risk you’d like to take — but haven’t been able to?

I’ve chosen myself over most things. I say most because it was by force and circumstance.

Now I’m learning to choose me when there is no adversary and pressure.

To risk choosing me out of love and not lack has been one of the hardest things to do.

I have dedicated most of my life to service. Service to god, family, community, friends, romantic relationships…

I want to-want to, choose me over everything.