nothing that’s growing ever stays the same
anything growing will always change
whether maturing or decaying
so i will know when they ride this wave
they stay afloat
i know myself, what i am and not
finally love myself, okay with those who cannot
it’s not weakness or the frailty within
it’s common ground, what makes us akin?
similar in struggle, destiny, traumas and fate
it’s only flesh and within the godhead remains
the nucleus of souls intertwined with the divine
this is how i will know
don’t need you
and i want you
craving that emperor energy
a soft life where we can just be
you be you
and let me be me
watch the blessings flow so abundantly
feeding off this infinite energy
cups overflowing into one another
creating a sea of authentic creativity
where we don garments that bring us pleasure
synchronized tones and hue so vibrantly
told every where we go to keep shining
black love so brilliantly blinding
opening heavy eyes to see the essence of humanity
the original Adam and Eve
before the fruit
poisoned with a promise of truth
thinking it was a fair trade
unbeknownst to them a snare was made
against all odds they say it was fate
and here we meet
complete
It’s funny how you would even consider
Being better does not have to make me bitter
Just irritated that you would think
You’d ever have it better than me
Thought that if you had one
Then you could have two
But I’m a whole lotta woman
And you bit off more than you could chew
Looking over there thinking you could find
A love so pure and true I’d call you mine
Knowing I know you like you know yourself
Without the ancillaries
And the cards you were dealt
Now you see that I see you
It’s funny how you’d considered
Me choosing you
what a wild trip around the sun
when i began this adventure
the goal was singular
to satisfy my appetite
many lessons learned
i cringe when thinking about the burn
never had this stage of life
throwing caution to the wind and taking flight
who knew this cliff could be so high
now addicted to the thrill knowing i survived
how again will i cheat death
gale force winds to take my breath
to kiss you once again
feel the softness of your skin
roll over with laughter
as we dance in the livingroom
hips rolling, vibes flowing
light the green
set the scene
another round of you and me
i wonder this time
where we’ll be
One day I will have the courage to tell my tale. I won’t be afraid of those who won’t believe me or just brush it off. There will be someone on this earth whom I could always trust to try to understand. I am a vault, so much so that when I was dying inside I looked like I was winning. In spite of it all God honored my prayers and blessed me and my children. Although I played a silent role in that film, I was the director and producer.
Just watched a video of Tabitha Brown testifying about the goodness of the Lord. As she describes her lowest state, I resonated so deeply with that. To see where God has brought her in 6 short years is mind boggling. At this big age; I wonder if there is a better life out there for me. I have always had my dreams of grandeur for my life, but it just never came to be. It never was the reality I so desperately wanted at every stage and phase of my life.
I have always thought that it could be better. People could be kinder, loyal, loving and true. I always knew I deserved better, yet in the most desolate of times there was always a ram in the bush. And every time I made it out I was given even more hope in the beauty of life and humans.
And one day I decided to come out of the shadows, to speak up for myself and those I loved. That I and we would not be misused any further. That the generational pattern ended with him and me; EVEN IF that ended him and me. The cost was way too high, I could not risk the very reasons I lived and persevered.
When the jig was up, the mask fell off and I was public enemy number one, in a new city and unemployed.
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