love, me.

where have we been? where have we gone?

up to this moment, what’s right and what’s wrong?

in suspension, so apprehensive.

the only thing i can do, is be the one who loves you.

all trust has been lost, so we start from zero.

counting the cost, and becoming your own hero.

everything is a blur, illusions abound.

no running, no jumping on the merry go round.

the light and the dark, the good and the bad.

the joy in your eyes, the ache when you’re sad.

the gifts and the talents, the pain and the malice

the temptation to just throw the whole thing away

easily be the victim and everyone else is to blame.

but you made the choice, chose to hide and not voice,

the power and sovereignty you submitted to formalities.

to gods and men, both white and black

until it was your self that was under attack.

deconstruct, decolonize, denounce all you know,

just a seed that’s been planted and starting to grow.

your roots will grow deep as you stretch for the sun,

Spirit and ancestors shield their precious chosen one.

breaking curses, chains and traditions of men,

like a phoenix you rise, a star in the heavens.

gratitude, breathe and release the trauma,

surrender, love and flow through the drama.

you are beautiful, wonderful so creative and free,

you’ve finally learned to love, me.

The Black Witch (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1) Book Review

The Black Witch (The Black Witch Chronicles, #1)The Black Witch by Laurie Forest
My rating: 1 of 5 stars

This is the first time I have ever given a book one star. Just one. LOL I really felt like this book kept trying to go somewhere but it never made it to its destination. Mind you, I did not even finish this book. Maybe because I am not a “young adult”. I could not endure reading angst and pains of youth and subpar writing. I read about a third of this book and I just cant. So I gave up. Forgive me guys, but maybe this author needed a better editor cuz…yikes.

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The Diabolic (The Diabolic, #1) Book Review

The Diabolic (The Diabolic, #1)The Diabolic by S.J. Kincaid
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

This book has got to be one of the best books I’ve read in a long time. Although this series is nothing like TOG, I have connected with Kincaid’s writing, characters, and plot. In my mind, Maas is the Queen of fae and Kincade is the Queen of outer space. The plot is excellent, the main character is utterly unique, and the worldbuilding is perfect. I can’t wait to read the next book in this series. If you haven’t delved too deeply in sci-fi, give this book a try, its well worth your time and the audiobook is superb.

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slip

everybody has love but I have nothing

i am weak, drained of every ounce of love.

my life’s blood the greatest thing I offer

pours out of me, overflowing every coffer.

yet when I grasp for a love of my own,

slip.

from my grip.

i am now numb.

a plant hardly watered,

is a plant undone.

beauty and the beast

ive had a long cool down.
lonely but not alone with you around.
out of the habit of loving you
like ive always wanted to.
not sure when i gave up, just kept you in a box
never to be opened up, i kept you on lock.
sometimes peeking with hope in my heart,
only to be bitten by your intemperate maw.
you were insecure, anxious, afraid and unpredictable,
i was passive, accommodating, patient and faithful.
everything that i am crushed under this weight,
buried down deep in the waste of your wake.
you were a beast, could i be the beauty?
surely i am flawed, building walls for security.
but its not your fault entirely, we’ve identified the imbalance.
prognosis and remedy giving you this last chance.