the greatest of these

The frustrating thing about being

in this space place and time, I’m seeing

Is feeling offbeat missing words to the rhyme

or reason. but no matter the season

I will always believe in

the depth, height, and width of love.

Because it conquers all, it forgives much

and never loses touch

of the divinity of humanity.

Storge, philia*, eros, and agape

and one day it will roll and rock me.

On its waves I will drift

with a lover who is willing

to do the work it takes for healing

the trauma from the drama

of this human experience

and to realize that it was all an experiment.

The variables of fear and the constant of love,

the dark night of the soul,

the whole from which we’ve dug,

out of and into a new reality

where we are we and can simply just be.

Let’s hold hands and proceed on this journey.

Who knows how much time we have?

Let us eat, drink and be glad.

Surpass the frivolities of all the animosity.

Bypass the petty disputes of blind men seeking an excuse,

to do the harm they do without remorse and vain pursuits.

Excuse me,

can we have this dance?

Get our backs up off the wall and write our own romance?

One that will never be believed

and when they finally look up to see

abundance will be our receipts.

We’ve cashed out.

So pack light my love

we know this is enough

Because love conquers all,

we are too lifted to ever fall.

*philia is one of the four ancient Greek words for love: philia, storge, agape and eros. In Aristotle’s Nicomachean Ethics, philia is usually translated as “friendship” or affection. The complete opposite is called a phobia.

mister write

had to stop, park and write this to you

Before all that I learned became old news

Burning away the dross and finding the gold

Of knowing you, what a treasure to behold

It is and was your insight

Your wisdom that drew me in

And like a thief in the night

I was captured by your pen

Soliloquy of gratitude

And the value of self worth

Had me loving myself all the more

etching ointment on what hurts

Your penmanship, a well placed accent

accentuated your smile, the Psalms of Ascents

hope amidst oppression and all we have endured

a longing to return to love

future peace and prosperity assured

If you would hear me,

I’d tell you your words

are sharp like the

tack you lack

When pierced with fear,

or sensing insecurity’s near

had me stumbling and bumbling over words that should come easy

adjectives that made my heart burn

with anger, fear and sadness

exposing old wounds underwritten by past shit

If you could see me and the softness of my face

words written of me, would be quickly erased

This one is on me

Felt like I had to pretend

That within this shell

wasn’t a heart that would bend

Break and fold under a strong hand

Compromise. All that I am.

With just a word, smirk, or tone of voice

It could be you if I had the choice

that familiar place all brought me to

Made me realize that it wasn’t you

could be too late to end as friends

Because it’s fate, this is how it ends?

Outlined in the beginning

this would be bad, thought you were kidding

mister write, you could never be wrong

because I see in you all the ways you are strong

the capacity for love and gentleness

while serenading loved ones phrasing a caress

tell you all the ways your beautiful

no need to convince

This inks almost dry

honored to experience your presence

obsessed

How can I get this off my chest

I’m obsessed

Had to runaway, leave you behind

Lest you hold my body as well as my mind

In lust with a pitch, intonation of voice

Who’s the man behind the curtain please let me know

Free me from your imprint in such a short time

Yes I’d swallow it if you love me blind

How can I get this off my chest

I’m obsessed

may you be all that I dream and all I need

may you be the one who challenges me

intimacy

far enough to get close to me

into me i see

that which i’ve run from

resisting while sleeping

i fight for my life

eyes wide awake, hidden in plain sight

my anger and rage at what you did to me

and what you didnt…is what’s hidden

yet ultimately it was all up to me

i chose my hell in a bed so ridden

with truth and lies so convoluted

with pain and pride an archaic institution

how could something i so deeply believe

become so cloudy as if just a dream

was there a you? how was i me?

into me i see

you are now just a figment of my imagination

a remnant of my past, a stop at a station

i look at you now and see nothing

my body locks up even when we’re not touching

these are my last words to you

i’m closing this book

this chapter

the hereafter

because now

into me i see