I release the need for suffering
Stopping time to dwell in the past,
letting guilt and shame sweep over me
Where are my flaws?
I see them all
crouching angrily at the door of violation,
weak boundaries, fear and self depreciation
All the good done with a knife behind their back,
lured by another sad song they slowly attacked.
Bit by bit til there’s little left
and I finish the job riddled with regret,
For all that could have been avoided
had I listened to me, the truth – divinity.
Warning me not to satisfy my insatiable curiosity
the beauty of our species and their depravity.
I’d wonder how they’d break my heart in the light of my love.
I’d ponder the ending, manifesting a betrayal as epic as Judas.
Then grieve, shout and sob whilst clenching my chest.
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