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On what subject(s) are you an authority?

The amount of fear and anxiety I’ve felt being a single mother has deeply impacted my mental health. Enduring cycles of abuse at this level of independence and isolation has put me on a path of hyper vigilance that is barely paved yet often frequented. Yet this path is so fertile, that weeds and grass hurry to fill the cracks. Imaging this experience at a lower socioeconomic level mirrors my childhood. All the limitations and sacrifices made for the sake of a “better life” makes me an authority.

Stargazing

Finally found the time to look up.

Back against the wall had me stuck.

Fear and pride had me blind

To escape by way of self love.

The anger in my heart melted by fires of truth

Knowing that leaving it all behind

Walking by faith not sight.

Made true friends along the way

A specter to old allies and confidants turned foes

Now I can see the buds on trees

No longer saplings from seeds

Planted years ago

In the here and now I’m looking up

Knowing that everything I see

Is all now so heavenly.

love island

Just realized that I’m not crazy

That everything I want

I totally deserve

Conflict happens when I’m given shit

And I turn around like, “I don’t want this.”

They keep giving me their worst

Knowing I am and give my very best

The swimming pool has piss

Find someone else to wade in this

I can’t wait for this

Or that shit.

I resist

Resistance.

Be like water my friend

On this love island.

run away

there’s something brewing inside of me

No matter how hard I try

The flame just won’t die

The feeling of betrayal and abandonment

This thorn in my side feels like a broken rib

But wont stop until I finish

So make my enemies my footstool

Take them all off my list

Not the one to be played with.

Instead of raging I’m biding my time

For the day it will finally be goodbye

and Ill never ever run away.

Summer

What is your favorite season of year? Why?

Now that it’s summer

I’m looking for you

Thought I found you on social media

Way back when

Thought I found you in church

Singing sweet and low the souls gospel hymn

Thought I found you in hip hop

A dope rhyme, boom bap, Ellington on keys.

Thought I find you in a club, gym or speakeasy

A meet cute so serendipitous it’d hurt your tooth

And now that it’s summer

Hoping you find me.