inside of me is a bellow.
a shriek that pierces the heavens,
yet echos against the bars of this prison im in.
me sick of you and the filth of me.
so loud, filled with pain and fear.
just cuz im grown that dont mean i cant hear,
that bellow inside of you spilling tears.
heartache filling up like rivers in the cracks of you
of me
inside of me too.
i scream.
For some the pain of frustration leads to a tumult
of tantrums and a verbose vomit spewing of anger and hate.
Shattering the heart – yet building walls.
Constructed by cold avoidance and confusion,
yet picked away by a romantic gesture or two.
A fickle memory born of words better left unsaid.
Heavy hands upon a tender child desiring mother’s love.
Perhaps ones formative years indeed defines today.
Fragility’s rage
is a tortoise in its shell
When danger comes, pull in, don’t run like hell.
Flashbacks and words fall upon that shanty,
Accusations now muffles within the cramped cavity.
But when no one is looking fragility’s rage
is like a magicians token quote,
“no you see me, now you don’t.”
Children of Blood and Bone by Tomi Adeyemi
My rating: 4 of 5 stars
“The gods chose you, they don’t make mistakes.”
First of all, I am grateful for this book. Why you ask? As a bookish POC who loves fantasy and science fiction, this is my first time reading a novel in this genre with all African characters. Issues of colorism and police brutality, as well as themes of oppression and justice, permeate this novel. Adeyemi does a great job at handling these sensitive topics and the tone is almost reminiscent of apartheid and post-apartheid South Africa.
Now for the other stuff. The magic system is dope and rich, with varying powers/giftings endowed to a chosen few by a god/goddess. This book started off realllly good until about a third of the way and then it slowed down. In that way this book reminds me of The Poppy War, BUT, it picks back up two-thirds of the way and were back in business. I wonder if that is because it was supposed to be a stand alone. But its done so well and now its gonna be a series. IDK. Not sure where the series will go from here but the skies the limit.
I’m very excited for the next installment and I’m praying my girl delivers.
A Court of Frost and Starlight by Sarah J. Maas
My rating: 2 of 5 stars
Booooooring. Good thing I listened to the audiobook because I’m pretty sure I would have never finished this novella. ACOWAR and ACOFAS made me entirely too nervous and afraid to read the last installment of TOG. Thank God Maas delivered on Kingdom of Ash because that would have been utterly disappointing. If for some reason you feel the need to read this book, DON’T. Life and time are precious, and despite what some members of the SJM fandom may say about this one, use your energy for more satisfying endeavors.
Revised Review from May 9, 2018 on Goodreads.
Dance of Thieves by Mary E. Pearson
My rating: 3 of 5 stars
As much as I enjoyed the Remnant Chronicles, this spinoff series, Dance of Thieves, is not nearly as good. It felt too trope-ish, predictable and a bit corny. The beginning started off slow, and despite having decent characters, the two main characters as love interests didn’t work for me. I’m not a fan of the heroine either, she is hard to understand and perhaps that’s because she lacks depth. I listened to the audiobook for which I am thankful because I don’t think I would have been able to finish the book. However, I wish I hadn’t wasted my credit on it. If you just want to read a decent book with romance, adventure and a bit of intrigue, then give it a try.
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